We Thank the Lord Jesus Christ that His Mercy Knows No Limits!

This use to be a blogspot of a man that was very angry at God. I was angry at God for many years. I just would not admit it. I recently came to the place I rejected the exisetence of God. At least I thought I did. I would curse God and go out of my way to curse God's people. I hit lower than rock bottom and denied that God existed. In ignorance I blasphemened the Holy Spirit.
Over the last month I would hear gospel songs being sang in an audible voice. I would search through the house and nowhere was their any music playing. I tried to ignore these voices singing of God's faithfulness. I even told myself I was receiving bleed over signals in my house from strong raidio towers or through eletronic gagets in the house were picking them up. More and more this happened.
Last Monday night I heard a choral sing, "Great is thy Faitfulness." I walked across the house and I asked my wife, "Honey are you singing any gospel hymns?" She said no. "It has to be a feedback signal bleeding through some gadget. " I would tell myself.
On Tuesday morning I woke up hearing the old hymnal, "I Know Whom I Have Believed". And a soft gentle voice saying, "I will never let you go. I am faithful. Even if you are unfaithful I remain faithful to keep those which the Father has given to me."
Tuesday morning with my ears I heard more songs, "Great is Thy Faithfulness" and "Come unto me."
I went to my wife, we prayed together. I repented before the Lord and turned to Jesus asking him through so much sorrow and humility to forgive me and restore me , and I heard in my ears, "Dane I love you. Your sins are all gone, buried forever in the sea of my forgetfullness and you are my son."
And fuck you fundie! I am just bullshitting you! Non of the above is true!

Friday, June 19, 2009

What I Get From the Study of the Book of Romans

The Book of Romans. What an awesome text explaining in wonderful detail the Grace of God given to His chosen through the life, work, death and bodily resurrection of our God and Saviour the Lord Jesus Christ!
[The scriptures are from the NASB. In my opinion the NASB is the like reading the biblical languages translated literally word for word in English. The NASB is close as it gets as far as translations go.]
I am starting out with Romans 9:14. "For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God."
Remember that our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ taught us that God chooses us by His will and we do not choose Him by our will. We are regenerated because God drew us to Himself. In other words we are not a Christian because we woke up one day and decided on our own we would accept Jesus Christ and believe in Him for salvation. God the Holy Spirit is the Decider. He is the One who put the very thought in our heart to receive Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour in the first place. (Romans 8:29; 9:11; 1 Corinthians 1:26; Ephesians 1:14; 3:11; James 2:5; 1 Peter 1:20, 29)
Romans 9:15-16 confirms that we are born again because it was God Himself that chose us in the first place to be His children. "For He says to Moses, "I WILL HAVE MERCY ON WHOM I HAVE MERCY, AND I WILL HAVE COMPASSION ON WHOM I HAVE COMPASSION. So then it does not depend on the man who wills or the man who runs, but on God who has mercy."
Do you get this? The very fact we are saved, and the desire we have to serve God and work for Him is put in us by God. He chose us. We did not choose Him of our own accord and will!
Why is this important to know? We are made secure in our faith in Jesus Christ when we realize that it is God that chose us for His own who will keep us forever!
I am convinced one of the most foul and vile sins we can commit is when we assume that what we do after we are born again keeps us saved! This works plus salvation to remain saved doctrine is insulting to God! Why? For when we think we must work for God to keep His grace we are stating, "Jesus, your sacrifice is not good enough. You need my efforts to keep me saved!"
No, I am not stating that we should care less about our sins after we are saved. We are mindful are our sinful flesh. The very struggle against our fallen nature serves as a reminder that we are saved by the grace of God. And as we grow in the faith our desire to please Him grows stronger. And we know that we work for God not because we have to but because we Love Him and our brethren. And when we love Him and our brethren this strengthens our desire to please God and edify our brethren! Perseverance.
And everything I stated above is a bunch of fucking bullshit! HA HA HA, FUNDIE! Does this make you angry? I hope so! How does it feel to be shit on by the same shit you emotionally abuse atheist with?

Sunday, June 14, 2009

The Epistle to the Hebrews

I will add to and edit my posts about my study of the Epistle to the Hebrews. When you visit you will notice additions and editing of the articles and the posts of the Bible studies. I am not using any Biblical commentaries. I will. I believe we should. But I desire to study the Scriptures first without these aids and share what God has revealed to me and then study the commentaries of more learned people and know where I need to improve and discover the areas I could be mistaken about too. I will do my best to quote the sources of the scholars I learn from.
So far there are three wonderful nuggets of truth I received from the Epistle to the Hebrews are:
1. The customs, feasts, keeping of certain days for celebration and observance and tabernacle items were types teaching us important truths:
That the outer court represented man's fallen state. His sin and the admission he is a sinful creature and all he does, says, and thinks are infected with sin.
The inner court represented the unchanging eternal Holy God. That Holiness is not what God does but what He is.
2. The outer court and all the tedious hard and detailed rules and customs represent that no matter how good man tries to be, no matter if he follows every rule and demand of God to obey Him, it still will never be good and worthy enough to meet the standards and stand before the presence of the perfect Holy God.
I learned from the Epistle of the Hebrews that my best offerings, my best efforts, my greatest gifts to God are infected with sin in and of themselves because these things come from a fallen creature. This is why the sin offerings had to be repeated over and over again and sacrifice of the Day of Atonement was offered annually because these sacrifices offerings were never good enough because they were tainted with sin.
3. Jesus Christ lived among men sinless represented by the outer court. He died outside of Jerusalem to be the perfect sin offering for all those God chose to enter His New Jerusalem, (peace with God forever). He was then worthy to enter the inner court before the very presence of the Holy God and because His sacrifice was not tainted with sin He was able to make our Atonement eternal.
[I realize my explanations of what I learned so far is sloppy in grammar. I hope and pray to get better. ]
Another thought that came to me from studying the Epistle to the Hebrews is that when we claim to have to do the do's and not do the not's to remain saved we are being arrogant, carnal, and very sinful in the eyes of God. For we, the sinful creature, are stating our own efforts we do in the outer court is perfect and makes us worthy to approach the inner court and Holy of Holies. This is so wicked and sinfully prideful! For we in this sinful arrogance are robbing Jesus Christ of His glory. For only His sacrifice is perfect.
This does not mean that we can sin and not care. What it does mean is that we should do our best as God enables us, to live out of respect and awe for the One whose gift of Atonement was able to save us once and for all time.
One day we will leave this outer court and walk into the inner court and the Almighty God that reigns from his throne of the Holy of Holies will declare us righteous because the Sacrifice is eternally perfect!
And why do you stupid ass fundies believe in this shit anyways? Ahh, see how easy it is to fool fundies!

What I Learn from God's Word.

I am very far away of even being in the tip of the shadow of a scholar of the Holy Scriptures. I know my new walk with God will be a continual learning experience as the Holy Spirit enables my heart to grasp and discern the truths of His Scriptures.
I sense in my spirit God wants me to share the nuggets of truth His Spirit reveals to me from the Holy Scriptures. I believe first and foremost this is to be one means of bringing glory to God. Next it is a means for me to learn from others much more mature than I am in the things of God to teach me through their adding, sharing and correcting me where I am mistaken or not fully understanding the doctrines of God. I testify in Jesus name too, that all the verses of the Scriptures I once used as an atheist to mock and lampoon what I thought in my unregenerate heart proved the stupid ignorance of Christians , now makes perfect sense and are confirmed in my regenerated heart to be the absolute unfailing truth of Almighty God! Truly the Scriptures state that the things of God can only be understood through the Spirit of the Lord. To the unregenerate soul God's words are foolishness. To those that are born of the Spirit of Jesus Christ, the truth and saving power of God! Thank you Holy Spirit for saving my heart through Jesus Christ by the will of God the Father!
I pray that as I begin using my blog this way it will accomplish three major goals. Of course
I have more desires to fulfill through this blog. However I desire all my failures and successes will accomplish the three core goals listed below:
Please pray for me. I am unimaginable light years from even approaching the tiniest of a shadow of being far less than perfect.
Thank God Jesus has conquered sin, death, and all the works of evil and He has redeemed me with His eternal salvation!

Friday, June 12, 2009

How Deep the Father's Love for Us!

"How Deep the Father's Love for Us!"
Behold the Man upon the Cross,
My sin upon His shoulder!
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
call out among the scoffers.
It was my sin that held Him there,
until it was accomplished.
His dying breath has brought me life!
I know that it is finished!
I will not boast in anything,
No gifts, no pow'r, no wisdom.
But I will boast in Jesus Christ,
His Death and Resurrection!
Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer!
But this I know with all my heart,
His wounds have paid my ransom!
Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer!
But this I know with all heart,
His wounds have paid my ransom!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

A Few Days Before Jesus Christ Delivered Me

My wife Delores will confirm what I am stating is true.
As you know from my previous post I had been hearing with my ears in a literal audible way some of the old time great Gospel hymnals. I brushed these incidents off and did not pay much attention these incidents.
Three days before the Lord delivered me I prayed a prayer out loud in front of my wife. My intention was to prove to her God did not exist. My wife is big on prayer. She would tell me at least once a week she was praying for me. After she stated this again I determined to put an end to her, "I'm praying for you" routine.
I said. "Okay honey, do you really believe God would do anything to keep me from going to Hell if he chose me to be one of His?" She did not say a thing. I then in a mocking way to prove my point that prayer is nothing more than wishful thinking, prayed aloud in front of my wife, "God, if you exist, and of course I know you don't, but if you do, I want to experience a supernatural event that can not be explained away to me and yet I know that it is actually happening in front of me and I know that it is real. Amen!" [I add here that my wife stated she shared with her Christian friends and her loved-ones that it would take God doing something that was real that I could not explain away no matter how hard I tried. Delores would remind her concerned Christian friends and loved-ones that she has been married to me almost 33 years and knew in her heart what it would take God to do to bring me to my spiritual senses. She stated this was the reason she refused to debate me. She knew God would take care of me! Thank God for the godly wife!]
Looking back on this prayer of mine I use my imagination a little bit and I can imagine Jesus tapping an angel on his shoulder and laughing and saying, "Watch this. This is going to be funny."
The last incident of actually hearing audibly with my own ears a Choir singing the great old fashion Gospel hymnals sealed the deal for me. No matter how much I tried to deny this and tell myself that what I was experiencing was in my mind the Chorus kept singing. And the rest is wonderful history.
I personally believe that last Tuesday morning is when I was truly saved, generated, and born again through Jesus Christ. My whole previous Christian experience had with it a personal nagging doubt God did not exist. I would just play the game and use the message of the Gospel to help others.
It is amazing what denial and rebellion against God can do in its course of deception.
I will give an example how we can easily throw out explanations of coincidence to attempt to explain away what clearly is God working.
My youngest son, Jerald "Jerry" Christian Eidson will tell you that this really happened. I am sure he would not mind telling any of you this if you were to request his Email address and/or have him call you on your cell or land line phone to verify this. Before I go any further some of you Christians may doubt God can use an unbeliever, (I believe I was an unbeliever because I doubted God existed while professing Him as my Saviour). God did speak through a Donkey. So that is enough proof for me that God can speak through an unregenerate person!
When my son was in his mid teens I heard a voice, (not out loud but an inward strong overwhelming voice), that warned me that the next day a young man would pull up in our driveway in his car. He would offer Jerry a ride to somewhere. The voice said to me, "Don't let him go!" I wrote down the boy's name, the exact time, (Literally the exact time), the first sentence out of the Young man's mouth, (literally the exact words). I wrote all this information down and placed it in one of his books. The time, event, the young man and the exact words were spoken by this young man to my son exactly and perfectly as the inward voice told me it would happen over 24 hours previously. The very next day as both me and my son were standing outside, (the boy had not told Jerry anytime previously he was planning to come over to our house. Neither did he tell me or anyone else.), I said to Jerry, "You can't go and before you argue with me go get your book and read what is written by me on the inside of its cover." Jerry did and he read exactly what happened and he was moved strongly. I was shocked too myself. Many years later I would [lie about this to explain it way and] state that this was just freak coincidence. Why would I claim such a thing? Because as a professing atheists I refused to believe God existed. No matter how strong and clear any evidence existed to prove God is I in my rebellion refused to believe.
I thank God His grace is irresistible. Those whom God has chosen can not resist his grace. They will rebel and go into deep levels of sin and wicked perversion. But No matter the extent of their sin, no matter the depth of their wickedness, or the vileness of their evil, in the end they are not able to resist the Grace of God.
Jesus keeps those whom the Father has given Him!
I have so many people to ask their forgiveness for. Too many to list. In this post I ask all those I have insulted, mocked, trashed, and sinned against to forgive me. All I know to do to make an amends for my vile wickedness is to live each moment for the Saviour. In Jesus' name would you be willing to forgive me and honor your love for God by my life living for the Saviour?
I am not perfect. I am very far from perfect. I still have my same personality of being outspoken, opinionated, pushy, and forward. But I do share a common experience and state with all my brothers and sisters in Jesus Christ. This is Redemption!

These are some of the songs and music that I heard audibly through my physical ears just before I was delivered and redeemed through Jesus Christ alone:

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

God's Irresistible Grace

By Dane Eidson
Published Wednesday, June 10th, 2009
Satan is envious of the Church's score card because each point represents the bruisings, crushings, back stabbings and all the pains that have deeply wounded so many hearts that happened on their way to the Kingdom.
Christians are often the only creatures that eats their own young, their most hurt, and the weakest. They often tear into any fellow believer for the smallest of infractions whether it be for dogma or words of disagreement even between family members.
I was both giver and receiver of this vicious cycle. But this is not what this posts is about....this time.....at least.
The Irresistible Grace of God.
No matter how much I blasphemed God and cursed Him and His people God refused to leave me alone. It did get to a place where I would go for a long time without sensing God's presence and this made it easier for me ignore and deny His presence. And when God would come back and pull on my heart I only grew more angry and much more bitter and more determined than ever to prove God did not exist.
When Christians with in my own close family and who were once best of friends returned my evil with greater evil and revenge that only justified in my eyes I was right and they were wrong. But little did I know the ends did not justify the means.
My wife after listening to all my flowery debates against the existence of God would always ask me the same question, "Why do I as a Christian still love you and desire to be with you and forgive you no matter what?" I would become frustrated because no matter how much I tried to explain her whys and what-fors I could not offer one single piece of a logical argument to refute her.
Early last week I began to hear with my ears old Gospel songs. "Great is Thy Faithfulness, I know in Whom I have Believed, Amazing Grace and other wonderful songs. I would go into the other room and ask my wife what she was singing. She said each time she was not singing. I would be woke up on two different nights with the same songs being heard by my ears. No radio on, no TV station tuned to a religious station and I asked my wife again if she was singing.
It was 3 AM Tuesday. She said no she was not singing. After the third incident same as before this time I said aloud, "Who is this singing?" Immediately I felt shame, sadness, joy, gladness, and a desire to call out to Jesus Christ. I went into the living room where my wife was at. I asked her to pray with me after sharing with her what had been happening.
I ask my wife how and what to pray. She told me to just pray. I said I can't because I am very angry with God and His people. Delores told me to start my prayer by telling God what I just told her. I cried out to God and asked Him to forgive me for causing so much pain and harm onto others through my vile words and rebellious actions. I asked God to forgive me. I asked Jesus to save me. I told him even if it did not make complete sense to me I am by faith trusting in Jesus alone for my salvation. That I believe in my heart he died for me on the Cross and was resurrected bodily from the dead. I did not get a single rebuke or one condemning word about my past. All I got in return was all I needed. The love and forgiving compassion of the gentle Saviour.
When I ended my prayer I realized that Jesus never left me in the first place. He was always there. That his love is so perfect he took all my hatred, bitterness, anger and rebellion against him and His children and He erased these sins all away and replaced them with a redeemed heart.
I love thee Lord Jesus. I Am Free.